“I know what you are going to say, but don’t say it! You are wrong and it is not the first time when that happens! You have no idea how wrong you are!”
The girl looked deep into her friend’s eyes and the message was clear. NOT TO CROSS THE LINE. Her line…her heart… her life… her entire Universe. She never understood the idea behind anyway. How could another human being decide what is best for her? Since when the world decided that love is a virus, something evil, something from which people need to be saved from? Her rules. Her choices. Her needs. Nobody else has any right to say or do something against it.
She left. Her decision had been made a long time ago and she had no intention to change her mind now. Her friend started to walk behind her without saying any word.
It was a nice, sunny December day. A new year was about to come. New hopes, new dreams, new SHE. She could have felt the pulse of life floating inside of her body, her veins, her heart. A new boost of energy that made her feeling like she was flying. She knew these symptoms. Her heart recognized every single beat. It didn’t forget. It didn’t allow time to put its eternal fingerprint on it. It didn’t allow people to put dust on it, why should have the time been different? More powerful?
Life is a miracle, there is no doubt about that. But life itself would mean absolutely nothing without LOVE. Many tried to describe it. Many tried to explain it. To put it into words. To put it on music. Or paintings…or prays…or… anything. But there were not enough words to explain what she was feeling in that moment. There were not enough colors to paint it. Not enough lyrics to sing it.
She was happy. She was walking along the water thinking how lucky she was. How blessed she felt. Random miracles started to show around her, signs that the Universe was working through and for her. She looked at the blue water shining under the winter sun, then at her friend and she said:
“There is always a way…there is always a path, unknown by our mind, but so well felt by the heart. There is always a tough road and that one is called LOVE. It is not easy, actually is God damn hard, and not many choose to follow it. Because it’s scary. I did. I dove deep into the pain, so I can learn what happiness is. To recognize it. The journey on the land of my soul seemed for years painful, hopeless and useless. And yet, I knew that behind each closed door, a window would have eventually opened. And so it was. I’ve learned that life is a constant source of joy and happiness and that the perspective is the key to every single thing that happens to or for us. I changed mine on many directions, many areas of my life and now I am happy. But I couldn’t have done that if I hadn’t been guided by this…”. The girl took her both hands and put them together on her chest. She smiled and she continued:
“This (showing to her head) helped me accomplish what my heart wanted, needed, but it was just a co-pilot. I have a HEART-QUARTER, not a HEAD-QUARTER and there is where I make all my life decisions. I LET MYSELF BE AND FEEL. This is how I know you are wrong! This is how I know that HE is still THERE and I should let him THERE! This is how I know that there is always a way!”
She smiled…that kind of smile that has the power to wake up long time sleeping, wounded hearts… that kind of smile that makes you wanna fly… dream… hope and live again… that kind of smile that ruins any mind attempt to be rational and logic, but allows you to BE. That kind of smile that HEALS.
She looked again how the water was flowing. So smooth. So nice. So peaceful.
The sun was going down.